So I’m feeling pretty crummy this weekend, almost despairing, wondering whether or not God’s love really extends the sinner who cannot seem to stop sinning. I just felt so blah, so apathetic, I almost didn’t want to go to Mass this evening. But…I did because I know that Mass is the best way to come close to God. So I get to the Newman Center and for some reason there is nobody scheduled to be Eucharistic Ministers, Ushers, or Lectors. Suddenly I’m asked if I’d do the readings. It’s not the first time I’ve been asked to do the readings on short notice, but tonight was different. I didn’t feel comfortable doing it because I hadn’t dressed properly for Mass and I felt most unworthy of doing the readings for all the faithful gathered. Yet, I know that God intended for me to do them, no matter how I was dressed or how worthy or unworthy I am.
As I looked the readings over before Mass, I knew immediately that God had picked that second reading just for me. For here is what it said:
But earnestly desire the higher gifts. And I will show you a still more excellent way. If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.
Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends; as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect; but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away. When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became a man, I gave up my childish ways. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall understand fully, even as I have been fully understood. So faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
-1 Corinthians 12:31-13:13
Something tells me that God had this all planned out for me.



