Right now I’m taking the Communion of the Saints pretty seriously. Virtually every prayer I am praying right now either starts or ends with petitions to my patron Saints. And I can’t express how much it helps. And its not just the prayers that I know they are offering for me, but it is the example that they set for me or the inspiration from their lives.
For example, St. Olaf is right now one of my patrons that I am relying on a lot. His is not an example of quiet solitude, but one of conquest, no mercy eradication of those things which oppose God. Even when forced into exile, he was planning on coming back and died fighting for the spread of Christ. That’s inspiring, even if he was not super holy all the time. Then I look to St. Meinrad who was so self-giving that he died because people took advantage of holiness. That might not seem great, but he cared so much for others that he cared little for his own needs or comfort. Or St. Kateri, who defied her entire culture to conform her life to Christ. It often feels like that for me because our culture is one that pretty much disrespects anything godly whether it is the dignity of life, dignity of marriage, humility or any other Catholic concept. Obviously attempting or wanting to go against the flow that virtually every other American gay guy is going can be quite difficult, but surprisingly, Kateri offers an astounding witness in that battle.
But its more than simply asking them for prayers or looking to them as one looks to a fictional character, like a Gandalf or an Aslan. The Saints are our friends, intimate friends. They are our family, our brothers and sisters. They know me because Christ knows me. They love me because Christ loves me. They are near to me because Christ is near to me. They live in my heart because Christ lives in my heart. They desire nothing more than my salvation because Christ desires nothing more than my salvation.
I would be totally and completely fulfilled if my salvation was a relationship with Jesus Christ and nobody or nothing else. How could one not be? But its very exciting that salvation is also a relationship with everyone who is in Christ as well. I am thankful that God has given me extraordinary, wise, and holy brethren to be a part of my life from beyond death! Without these friends, these gifts from the treasury of God, I don’t know that I’d get by.